Let me start by telling you all that I read Losing Hope, Out of Breath and this book all back to back....so yeah I am emotionally spent.
I had to go back and re-read the last two chapters of The Coincidence because I remember the cliffhanger but I just needed refreshing on the characters, so I get into The Redemption and HOLY MOTHER OF BATMAN. I swear that Jessica Sorenson writes to make me have anxiety and panic attacks! The book starts where the other left off. Good right?? NOOOOO! because right from the jump its like your ready to kill bitches and strangle mofo's!!
Callie is back at school, wait what? I am trying hard to comprehend how and why she would leave Kayden....and what happened to Kayden??? where is he?? yes I know I am only on page 3 but damn it I need answers!!!
Buckle down woman I said to myself as I slap my face...now focus. Alright so as I continue to read and find out why she left Afton, I literally yell at my kindle "I hate her family! Fuck I hate his family even more!!" then want to know what? I wanted to kill! yup I was beyond pissed. Jessica, you and I need to talk. I get you have to make this book like dramatic and expel emotions from deep with in me but, I was literally pacing the floor telling myself to "reel it in". I get that I am at 6% but seriously?
After that breakdown I think I wanted nothing more then to just grab Kayden and Callie and Seth and just run. Unfortunately I can not do that sooo my next option was to keep forging ahead. Then bam all within that same 6% I am even more pissed off. Who says and does those types of things? UGH...
Jessica, 8% is no better and my heart is being crushed and ripped apart slowly. Sometimes I have to wonder if people ever truly listen to one another. Pain and I think the word I am looking for here is sorrow. As a mother I think this has to be one of the worst things in the world, to see your kid to talk to them but never really hear or see them. *sigh*
I am barely through to 12% and I am a ball of many emotions, but I think I like 12% this is a happy place. I actually crack a smile. Life is good....and that lasted all of 1%.
Are you all starting to get the sense of what is happening here?? I seriously have no clue how I will survive and I haven't even cracked 20% yet! I think I need to just let my emotions flow. I can't keep this up. I finished this book, I needed a hand like literally I needed to hold someones hand. I turn to my hubby. Yeah that doesn't help especially since he thinks I am nuts because I yell at my kindle, I throw my kindle (on the bed), I yell out "WHHHYYY" and lastly I cry. Like a champ he hold my hand and lets me cry.
Kayden gah! once I begin to see the inner workings of that crazy, family of yours I just want to jump in this book, wring the neck of your father, slap the shit out of your mother and tell her "fuck what everyone else sees. Fuck keeping up appearances and actually be a fucking mother you bitch!". I know its harsh but this is how I feel about this family. I also just want to wrap you in a cocoon of love and let you know how amazing of a person you truly are. Keep you in that cocoon until you mend and heal.
Callie, Holy fuck! I love you girl. You are brave and strong. I know things were so hard and you kept so much bottled up, but reading about you finally opening up and just letting Kayden in all the way, I saw your transformation before my eyes. I laughed, I cried, I was in awe. I wanted to fight Caleb myself especially in that one scene where he said and did those things to you. What a bastard! I loved how you took control and finally started making wise choices. That other secret was a harsh one and I am so glad for my sanity that you made it through that and stopped. I also loved how you never gave up on Kayden, even when it seemed like he wanted to give up on himself. How you drew him in and helped him realize how much better he was and didn't need to hurt anymore. I know it was hard to let him know your other secret but I was glad you told him and from that you both drew strength. The love between you too is pure and true and I am truly happy that I got to experience it with you.
Seth, Thank you for taking care of Callie and just knowing what she needed at every turn. Always being there and never judging her. Keeping her close and letting her learn to fly. I love that she has such a great Best Friend to lean on. I know now so much more about you and if I could rip you out of my Kindle and breathe life into you, you would most certainly be my best friend. I think my favorite scene with you still has to be the one at 12% in the truck. A smile still forms on my face, you are the epitome of what a true friend is. I loved sharing those moments with you and got to know you better.
Luke, I have no words to utter to you but thank you. What Seth is to Callie is what you are Kayden, his best friend. You just always seem to know what he needs and what is best. I didn't get to know a lot about you, but damn I hope you get a book because I really want to know what is up with your household. Can I just say that the ending made my stomach twist and I couldn't believe what I had read! I am so sorry you had to go through that, but you are a stronger character that I never gave you credit for. Again all I can really say is thank you.
I have no way to make all of you truly understand how wonderful this book is. While it did make my heartache and cause me anxiety it also shows what true friendships are. Healing after tragic events is never easy and even though these 4 friends have a past, that is detrimental, they lean on one another for support. I know Callie or Kayden could have easily given up and went a different route but to watch as they finally let out all their secrets and doubts, its a beautiful and hopeful thing to read.
Throughout this book (as you read from the beginning of the review) I was on a continuous roller coaster of emotions. I was anxious, pissed, murderous, laughing, smiling, crying. I was never disappointed. It was like a well executed fighter, blow by blow I was spitting out wordgasms of Oh yeah or Oh no, that's better. Yes stay there, don't stop! This book has made me want to just be a better parent. To truly look and see my children and to hear what it is they are saying without saying it. I have read many books that pull emotions out of me, Jessica has this way of doing this to me with every one of her books. No matter what genre. This book is no different. She has developed the characters and story so well that you seem to forget that this is a story on a kindle/nook/e-reader. The story is playing in my mind as I read, its as if I can look up and see Kayden sitting in an office talking with a man. I can hear the pain in Callie's voice when she talks about Kayden and what she saw that night in the kitchen. I can close my eyes and hear the snap of the rubber band against skin. I can feel the emotions of each of the characters. I am in awe of you Mrs. Sorenson. Thank you for giving me this amazing book and these truly inspiring characters.
Do you really need a rating? Seriously? Geez you are all so needy....fine
5 x infinity= the best book ever
**ARC provided via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review**